Play Not Thou With Fire: June 2007

Here of some more pictures of my visit to the great wild untamed big horn mountains and yes I did see moose and can prove it!<

lindy hop

This dance looks really cool when people do it or mix it up with some other dance moves but it is really difficult for me. Sometimes when I spin my dance partner around after pulling her back in we spin about a quarter circle too much or I'll pull her back in a couple steps to early. It mostly ends in me getting dizzy.

I was talking to a girl I met last night about it and she said that if I kept at it I'd be better at not getting so dizzy because leads tend not to get spun around as much as follows. Also looking at your dance partner instead of the the wall or something else helps. It was fun, I was able to see some people that I met last time and chat with them and meet some new people.

I'm still a little nervous though about asking girls to dance, although I'm starting to realize that this fear had no much of a basis besides my insecurity because I've never been turned down so far.

I'm told that I'm sorta tense dancing and if I try to do more than just the basic stuff I tend to miss the beat. Mindy said I should listen to some swing music at home close my eyes and focus on the beat and do what comes naturally weather it be to tap my foot of sway to the music. She said to pick out an instrument and focus on that like the steady beat of the base of the swaying beat of a horn.

Kaze no Stigma

I just started watching this anime called KAze no Stigma and I'm impressed. I've seen the first two episodes and they are really good. It is about a guy who was exciled from a clan of fire element users because a younger girl in the clan beat him to be the heir to the clan. Because of this he was disowned and exiled and left japan.

He came back to japan 4 years later being able to use wind magic instead of fire magic. His former clan looks down as wind magic being not as strong but there are some deaths of the branch family due to wind magic and he gets blamed (even though he didn't do it) and has to defend himself, some mysterious wind user kills the people who he defeated though making it look even more like he's the wind mage killing off the fire clan.

The last ep he had to face his father who exiled him. He is brought face to face with the man who changed his life forever and settles the pain on the battlefield. It is a very interesting story, can't wait to watch the next episode!

swing dance lesson

Last night I went to the special swing dance session that they had. We did lessons for two hours and than danced til midnight. Larry taught us some Charleston and Lindy Hop moves. I was kinda getting the Charleston down doing it single but can't really transition well to other things smoothly.

Lindy hop just kicks my butt, I don't do that well at all, I can sorta get but it isn't very smooth at all even with just the basic over and over again.

Oh and no one I invited came :(

swing

Went swinging again last night it was plenty fun. I actually went alone for the most part. But it was cool, I need to get out and meet new people. I don't want to fall into the trap of having my life so centered around church community that there is no room for outsiders.

Anyway, during the lesson I was dancing with this tall tattooed girl and she introduced herself as leanne I didn't recognize her all all but she game me a second take and said. "I know you" I didn't remember her all all. It turned out that we were in math class together at Aloha High. I hadn't seen her sense 1999. Anyway it was fun to catch up, she came with a guy named keith who seemed cool, I (think) it was her first time going swing dancing but she wanted to learn more.

I also go to dance with Nova for the first time ever yay! There is another swing dance lesson type thing on tuesday that I'm planning on going to at 7 if anyone wants to go.

Sorry Works

Apparently, there is a trend in health care to sew. Some cases of malpractice a doctor has said they are sorry, not as an admission of guilt but of sympathy that something bad happened to them, this can be used in court as an admission of guilt. So, insurance companies will advise to just cut off all contact with said people.

While this may help them in court though, someone who gets wronged and hung out, cut off left out of communication is much more likely to get angry and sew, also it makes it easier for lawyers to paint the doctor as a cold uncaring incompetent.

Sorry Works Talks more about it.

I was listening to this on the radio and thought it interesting. What does it say about the legal system / health system? Some states have passed laws that it is ok to say you are sorry.

Just when you think your over it

this past sunday it was really really obvious to me that I'm missing absent people. The song that Paul picked to sing was one that Nathan sung back when the Rameys were out. After church we went to NCO, the last time I was there rachael was leading us on mothers' day.

Maybe I'm just crazy but I miss people when they are gone. It is kinda hard.

more trip stuff

Here's some other pictures I took.

My sister her husband and my mother.

Melody of Oblivion

I watched this anime and I really like it. It sort of reminds me of the matrix with the post apolipitic theme. It is about how the world goes through a war with monsters and the monsters win. People have learned to live in submission to monsters, sacrificing children to them and just being jerks.

The younger generation is led to believe that there is no such thing as monsters and the older people that do no shun people that want to confront them.

Aside from that, this past week has really stunk. I think I can safely say it has been the worst one of 2007 so far. The news on sunday. And at work there were some management changes and some pushes for "efficiencies" that has translated into constantly being confronted about every little thing we do, I feel like a fish in a bowl with all the managers looking around observing talking but never helping.

reeling

So last night I went to church (I had been away for the past 2 weeks) and the service was kinda like... um wow. But, I am totally overwhelmed and surprised. I guess really unsure of how to respond the whole time was how I felt.

Just sat then still as a stone for about an hour then went out side when we had a break. I think I more or less checked out the rest of the service not wanting to think about it at all.

What I'm thinking now is: Do I want to go back? What am I supposed to do? What is next sunday going to be like? This is something that doesn't happen at our church, it is something that happens at another church, or that you read about in the news somewhere.